Leading to a Stressful Day @$&%

Part I
My morning is just fine, as usual woke up and did my regular stuff such as prepare breakfast for hubby and kids plus cook a bit for my ‘tapau’ lunch. After saying the goodbyes, I ran upstairs to take my shower, get-ready and headed to work.

Part II
The tasks on my plate are somehow still manageable. However, after the WEBEX session I had with a guy from India instantly changed my DAY. The pleasant day has slowly become tense. I tried to ease the burden by chatting with a few friends on Yahoo Messenger, yet my head still feels as though it is going to explode. I was not really being myself today, as in I did not talk a lot as I was really concentrating to get my figures correct. I stayed in the office until 8pm and I achieve NOTHING. Hence, I went back with a HUGE ROCK on my head, feeling useless and empty.

Part III
The stressful day goes on, it actually follows me home. Reached home and headed straight to the kitchen. Saw the chicken and fish on the sink. “Hmm, what should I do with you guys?” I start chopping the onion and garlic without having any clue on what I am going to cook. I was hoping for the idea to come to me soon. Finally, it was Vege Tomyam, Ikan Masak Kicap and Ayam Goreng for dinner. While cooking, both my kids are running around me and crying. They should be hungry, I said to myself. Didn’t want them to interrupt me so I gave Kakak; White Rice with Kicap and Nestum for Dedek. As a result, the cooking went smooth although I need to do a lot of cleaning after that **This is due to the nestum and rice scattered everywhere on the floor**.
It does not end there. I went upstairs to get my shower and my kids starts crying again. It really challenges my patience. I left Kakak with my hubby and drag Dedek along. Thank goodness my bathroom is quite big. I take Dedek with me in the bathroom and ask her to stand at the corner. Dedek was smiling looking at me. What does she know? She understands NOTHING. As for her, she just wants to be around her mother, which is ‘ME’. As for me, I wanted my space and privacy. My stress builds up. I have no choice but to try hard enough to control it. One of the methods that I use as of now is expressing it in my BLOG. I do find that somehow it does HELP. I am a plain human being, at times I can control my stress and anger but at times, I just couldn’t. The last thing that I want to do is hurt my hubby’s feeling and hit or even scold my ‘clueless’ kids. HELP ME!!!!