Why????

I always ask myself, why??? Why am I doing this to myself? The past kept on haunting me. I can’t seem to get it out from my system. Be it about my primary years or secondary years or college years or just whatever years before the current era. Why?? Why is that so??? Why can’t I just shut it out from my life.

Am I not grateful with what I currently have? I don’t think so. I love my life although, I could not be lying to myself, there’s always ups and down. Well, isn’t it the same with everybody. I have moved on in my life, yet I always look back at what I have done all these years.

Probably, I think a lot. Probably, it is just remembering those days.

When in real fact, there is actually nothing to worry about. I am just creating problems because I have none. Or could it be, I just want to feel good of myself so, I start reminiscing the olden days. Hmmpphh… as much as I want the answers, I definitely have none.

Haih. I am looking up the ceiling…. Trying to figure out myself.

Do you think if I were to let it all out, I will then be FREE!!!!?????
*Another question I ask myself, now and again*