Do I need a Shrink?

I was at work when I received this call.

“Mama balik pukul berapa ni? Lapar lah.” Said the voice over the phone.

*arghh! I am busy now, but my family needs to be fed*

“Erk.. okay, Mama balik sat lagi.” I’m torn between my work & family. But, family comes first. I packed my things and head home. I stopped by at Syed’s to get my hubby and I Nasi Beriyani and bought Nasi Goreng Cina for my girls. It was late and I was really tired; I don’t think I have the energy or even the time to cook. Hopefully, it’s only this ONCE!!

Reached home, my daughters welcomed me with shouts and screams.

“Mama. Mama. Mama.”

Gave them my smile, walked in the house and greet them with my miss-them-so-much kiss. Dedek and Kakak were busy trying to get my attention. I was beat. I tell them, that I need to freshen up. They tagged along.

Dedek was still struggling to seek for my attention and she got it. She put her hands into her mouth and there goes; she throws up. Paused. I just stood there not knowing what to do. I can feel that my tears streaming down. I cannot stand it anymore. I just took my towels and hurried to the toilet. And now, Kakak vomited. I just wipe it and dashed in to the bathroom and closed the door. I saw my hubby came to the rescue. Behind the doors, I was crying like a small kid. I cried until I sniffed. I sat on the toilet bowl and just let all the tears flow away, hopefully it brings along all my sadness, stressed away from me. Far, far away from me.

Please go and don’t ever come back to me.