A Letter...

Dear Kakak and Dedek,

I really do not know where and how to start. I feel ashamed of myself and I felt really bad to both of you. I know, I have promised to go back this weekend and we will go together for your sports day. I know, I have not been a good mother since I am always not around. I am always working, working and working.

Sayang,

I was really excited to go for your sports day. I have been counting the days to attend it. I have been telling my colleagues that I’ll be going back for the event until a huge problem arises and I had to cancel my trip back.

Sayang,

Believe me I did not have the intention to miss the occasion. I have been waiting for this day to see you both running around, with those cute little shirts, with your friends, teasing each other happily, with all your shouting in which no one will ever care and scold, you are free to jump up and down at the huge green field.

Oh goodness! I wish I could be there, sayang! I even signed up for the parents-kids game, so that we could enjoy it as a family as well. I even volunteered to become one of the judges.

And now, because of me, you guys can’t even make it too.

Sayang,

I am really, really sorry. I really hope that in time you would understand. I love you both, I do. As of now, what I could say is I’ll make it up to you. I really hope that after June this whole thing will end.

I can just hope and hope that things will change.

Sayang,

It really breaks my heart and I missed you sooo much. I love you, my lovely daughters. I really do.

From Your Sad, Unhappy and Ashamed Mother,
~Ace

p/s: And, not only that, I am going to miss watching the Akademi Fantasia Finals, too! Haih!