I wouldn’t say that I don’t have the time because I do. I wouldn’t say that I have nothing to write because I do too. It is not the time, nor because there is nothing to write. It is more of me not having the mood, hence NO BLOGGING.
At times, you felt as if you want to burst out because ideas kept on pouring. But, once you have logged in and click on the Create New button, suddenly all the ideas, the thoughts that once was in your head, disappeared. Well, more or less, that is exactly what happened to me.
~Ibu, engkaulah ratu hatiku.
It was certainly a busy weekend. It started from last Thursday in which my mother was admitted to Az-Zahrah Hospital due to ‘Gum Infection’. The first day when I visited her, she looks physically in good shape apart from the swollen gums. The second day though, she looks so weak because in the morning she had to fast and later that day, she had no appetite. She drinks, but after that she vomited. She looks awful.
I was with her when she was making an ‘ooh’ and ‘aah’ sound. Lots of ‘funny’ voices whispering ‘funny’ stuff in my head; it makes me want to cry. Of course, I am not expecting anything bad to happen, but there’s a thought where, is this how it’s going to be if it were to really happen? I am like, totally not ready for it. Yes, it is all up to GOD. It is all GOD’s doing. It is all written. Noted. However, I couldn’t stop the feeling of being scared and lost without my loved ones.
When I was younger, I used to be rebellious, naughty and stubborn. Heheh, I think I am still all of the above; it is just that in a different manner at this stage and age and of course to a different crowd of people for that matter. ;)
*Mak & Abah, I am so sorry for being so troublesome. I would like to ask for forgiveness on all the things that I have done in all those 30 years.
Anyways, I suppose, I am lucky to have such parents. Even though, they have given me all the freedom in the world. Somehow, I grew up making my own mistakes, learning every single thing in life with solid foundation taught by my parents and it makes me to be able to choose which is good and which is bad. Now, I am a mother myself. Only then, that I know it was not easy to become one, A MOTHER.
Gosh! No wonder lah, my karangan in BM always terkeluar tajuk. Hehe.. so, this is how I failed my BM paper, huh!
Back to my mother, she looks really sick on the Saturday but, she looks better after the minor operation done on Sunday.
Below, a photo we took when she was in the hospital.
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Alhamdulillah, she gets better by the day. She was discharge on Tuesday after the dressing or whatever it is called. And now, she’s back in Nilai with my lovingly father. ;)
~Mel, the very close friend.
Mel or Amela, a name that never fails to be mentioned in every single day of my life starting from the year 1992, however the name is slowly fading away and slipped faraway because of the commitments that we both have to our family.
Even then, whenever we have the chance to meet up. We can still talk and talk non-stop patching up things from where we left it!
I was lucky because I was able to attend her Raya Open House, although I reached rather late. I didn’t see her nearly for a year. This time, we did not manage to catch up a lot. Reason being, I was busy handling my kids, as well as herself. What more, her daughters were sick from fever and flu.
But, we understand, we can never be the same Ace~ and Mel anymore. We can never walk happily in the rain without umbrellas and lie about us being twins whenever people ask. The name Naeila and Nabila has never left my mind. The memories are still wrapped nicely in my head. It is well kept. Thank you, Mel for being such a good friend.
* Mel, thanks for inviting us to your Raya Open House. We totally had fun and your mee goreng memang ada ummppphhh lah. ;)
** Thought of snapping some raya pictures but camera I rosak!!! Sekarang, my camera is with SONY guys. Hopefully, it’s not that bad and also, mintak-mintak tak payah lah nak kena keluarkan duit pulak. I am still under warranty, ok?
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