Burung apa?

Raya updates? Gosh! There’s a hell lot until I don’t even know where to start. Perhaps, I’ll start with this ;).

I am sure you guys must have watched the “Iklan Raya by Petronas”, the “Burung Murai” episode.



Ok, here’s my story of “Burung Murai”. Kakak and Dedek are also a fan of the said advertisement.

And so, nak di jadikan cerita. This is what I did ;). Heheh..

Mama Ace~ : Kakak, burung apa?
Kakak Alya : Murai.
Mama Ace~ : Burung apa?
Kakak Alya : Murai.
Mama Ace~ : Burung apa?
Kakak Alya : Murai.
Mama Ace~ : Burung apa?
Kakak Alya : Murai.
Mama Ace~ : Burung apa?
Kakak Alya : Murai.

I asked her again and again and again, repeatedly and non-stop. Kakak patiently answered me without fail until, I think, this is already like the gazillion times and finally, this is what she replied me:

Mama Ace~ : Burung apa?
Kakak Alya : Isk! Mama ni… (dengan intonation yang geram but again, she will still give me the answer) murai….
Then, when I asked her again, I guess, she finally cannot tahan, she pull my face to look at her and she said, “Mama… burung murai”. Hahaha… I just wish I had it on video, in 20 years, she will be able to read my blog and view it for herself ;). Hehe.. itupun, if that time the blog masih valid and tak obsolete lah kan!

She is like an angel to me. Sometimes, I think she is more like a mother to me than I am to her. She can tolerate and have all the patience to entertain me. I am so proud of her.

I am so proud of you, sayang! Both of you!!

You know, there’s a story in which I am not proud of but I am willing to share because to me, maybe by writing it down I can at least let it out a little bit. Yes, it is a bit ‘memalukan’ I would say, but Hey! No one is perfect and to me, by doing this, I could probably get some help from my fellow readers. One of the hardest things to say to someone would be, “HELP ME” and I am saying it now.

At times, I just wish I could be a good mother to my kids. My kids are still very young at age and they know nothing. I am the adult and I am the one with the brain. However, sometimes I feel that I am so childish that I cannot even tolerate with my own kids?

Am I a bad mother? Am I a bad mother when I cannot stand being hit by my daughter and ended up scolding her and hitting her back? Recently, both my daughters have their tantrums and also they start to ‘masukkan jari dalam mulut sampai muntah – in other words, jolok’.

Last Sunday, we just got back from kampong and somehow, that morning I was not in a good mood. Both my daughters kept on crying and screaming non-stop and it really make me crazy. Normally, what started the whole thing was because they all ‘berebut nak mama’.

Sorang will tarik my face to the left and sorang will tarik my face to the right. And then, Kakak especially, she loves to pull my clothes and I tell you, Kakak is very kuat, ok? Dah banyak dah my baju yang terkoyak. Tarik baju tahan jugak lagi but when she start to hit me, goodness, it’s painful. Not once but many, many times. I tried to ‘tahan and sabar’ banyak-banyak but I just could not stand it. I ended up yelling at her!

By end of the day, I was so miserable that I did not know how to control myself. I dashed in the toilet and cried very hard. I locked my bedroom door and continue crying and crying and crying. I can hear both my daughters knocking away.

I was so stressed and I prayed. Praying is the best thing a person should do to de-stress her/himself. I prayed to god and I asked, ‘What is wrong with me? Tak sayang kah saya dengan anak-anak saya. What have they done wrong?’

And finally, when I think that I have composed myself then I open the bedroom door and let them in. The moment I saw them, I hugged them and cried for what I have done.

Oh goodness! What got into me? Do you think I should go and see a therapist? I am so worried of myself. Thus, I need HELP!!

So, you see, it really touches me that my daughter could bear with me teasing her and so, why can’t I bear with her ‘teasing’ me too!! Afterall, she is just a kid. In fact, a special kid!!!