My kids were sound asleep. Normally, hubby and I will use this opportunity to have some small talks. I don’t know where it came from but we were suddenly talking about having another kid. Probably, it started from the smooching and all… hahaha. Anyways, the main thing was, we both wanted to have another baby. We were not worry that we might have another special kid. We are more worried if we could not handle or cope with the bigger family.
Dedek is turning 4 this year. From the age, we think that we could have another kid, but at the same time we are currently still juggling with their cries and all. The older they get, the more attention they want from us, ‘the parents’. We didn’t really go deeper on the subject yet, but there’s already tears streaming down. I tried not to be emotional, but I just couldn’t stop myself.
I know it is very risky to have another baby. Yet, ‘what if’ I could get a normal baby? He/she could then look after the sisters. I mean, ‘what if’ hubby and I are no longer in this world, who will be looking after them? Where will they go? Yes, of course they’ll have the ‘Embahs’, ‘Tok’, Uncles, Aunties and cousins, then again ‘what if’?
I know God knows best, I know that all of this is written, but as a mother, I could not stop myself from thinking! Again, as a mother, I would want what’s best for my kids.
I guess, probably as the saying goes “let nature takes its course”.
So, stop stressing myself and live with it!!!!
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I still remember what my mom told my father, 'Never ever put on hopes that our child will take care of us when they were grown-ups. We never know...If U put so much hopes, I'm afraid it will turn out differently and you won’t like it at all. Moreover, it will be a burden to them. Let the time comes & life goes on. Only god knows. If they will take care of us until last day of our life, alhamdulillah…'
Yupp.. that is so true.. thanx Mel..:)
you're always welcome my dear.
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