The Un-Satisfied Me?

It is definitely nothing related to my monthly thingy, coz I just passed that phase. So, how come I am still in a dismal mode? Do I have a problem? If I do have one, how come I don’t even know the problem? Am I in a denial mode? I don’t think so. Why should I deny it, if I were to have a problem? I mean, of course I would want to solve it, right?

This is weird. Really weird! Is it related to work? Or could it be my family problem? Hubby and I, quarreled? Don’t think so? Or could it be because there was no quarrel at all, then somehow we are drifting apart, so that could be the problem? Or, am I just thinking too much?

Ok, let me try putting it all down?
Question : How’s my work?
Honest Answer : Honestly speaking, I am not really happy.

Question : Why aren’t you happy?
Honest Answer : Too much work; Not enough headcount as a result, no time for family anymore. I hate the traffic, the search-for-parking-every-morning and also on safety wise. Plus, it is so far from the office. Furthermore, need to carry my heavy laptop. And, before you ask, yes, I have asked for season parking at the basement but, no more spaces allocated for the company. *sigh*

Question : So, what are you going to do about it?
Honest Answer : Just stay till I get a secured job in Cyberjaya.

Question : Why Cyberjaya?
Honest Answer : Because, thought of settling down there. Since, there’s a special school for my kids, my hubby’s office is as well nearby. Thus, thought of end the madness of day-to-day hubby-rushing-to-Shah Alam-send-kids-go-office-in-Dengkil-and-evening-fetch-kids-again-in-Shah Alam.
*I thank him for that!!! Thanks, Babah* *wink 2x*

Question : So, can I say that your problem is work related?
Honest Answer : Well, I can’t really say that. The thing is, it affects my daily life and my relationship with the whole family. I am unable to do my usual cooking for dinner anymore, just because I always reached home late! Gosh! I seriously don’t know. What is it that I really want?

I bet, this will never end! I think, I am one hell of unsatisfied person. In which, this is very bad.

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